happinessbeyondthought

A Practical Guide to Awakening

Friday, September 11, 2009

Gary Weber: A biography is a story, remembered incorrectly, which is out of our control. One Zen teacher - “Whatever happens to you is none of your business”; Rumi -“Your life is not your own”. Raised Methodist, I had kids, college, submarines, graduate school. I knew, somehow, that it was critical to experience transcendent consciousness. Following near-death, I craved “enlightenment”. Reading a Zen poem, everything fell into a space beyond experience. A burning desire arose to regain it. For decades, went intensely into Zen, yoga, etc. while working in industries, practicing for hours before work. Experiences occurred, but did not end the tyranny of thought. Ramana found me; deep self inquiry followed. Seeing that progress was impossible with attachments, I surrendered completely and something shifted. The “I” blew out, irrevocably, thoughts stopped; stillness beyond imagination. I was not body, nor thoughts, but unchanging consciousness. Everything complete just as it was; all One. I resisted teaching; no teacher, no one to teach. Sharing began at urging of yoga and Zen teachers. What is shared is from nowhere just as it arises; a mystery.

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